Mirror, Mirror
If I'm real with you and me right now, my heart just ain't right. I'm seeing this pie chart of my heart in my head. I love a lot of things, I believe my heart is always devoted to something; never not devoted to anything. It feels like it breaks down like this right now:
50% sin
40% me
10% Jesus
I'm around a lot of mirrors each day; mentors, friends, Bible, Spirit, my own heart. That's how I think I know my heart is broken up into such numbers. As I interact with each mirror, I look at my motives, why did I bother to wake up today? Why am I talking to this person right now? Why am I doing this thing at work today? Sometimes my answers include...to look good, to do the right thing, to be disciplined, to feel good, to be successful, to be liked, to be loved, to feel significant. What's that all about? I clearly know that with this heart, my motives may never be pure, but my life is like a mirror in itself, if I look at my life, I am for the most part reflecting...me.
Where's Jesus? Am I really a sign pointing to something greater? I get out of bed, I interact with my friends, strangers at a coffeeshop booth, and Jesus for furthering His kingdom. Really. No religious babble here. I'm truly convicted. Again.
50% sin
40% me
10% Jesus
I'm around a lot of mirrors each day; mentors, friends, Bible, Spirit, my own heart. That's how I think I know my heart is broken up into such numbers. As I interact with each mirror, I look at my motives, why did I bother to wake up today? Why am I talking to this person right now? Why am I doing this thing at work today? Sometimes my answers include...to look good, to do the right thing, to be disciplined, to feel good, to be successful, to be liked, to be loved, to feel significant. What's that all about? I clearly know that with this heart, my motives may never be pure, but my life is like a mirror in itself, if I look at my life, I am for the most part reflecting...me.
Where's Jesus? Am I really a sign pointing to something greater? I get out of bed, I interact with my friends, strangers at a coffeeshop booth, and Jesus for furthering His kingdom. Really. No religious babble here. I'm truly convicted. Again.
posted by Josh @ 12:00 PM
7 Comments:
At February 28, 2006 1:33 PM,
Josh said…
I'm breathing on this one...
At March 03, 2006 4:11 PM,
Anonymous said…
I was extremely tempted to post this afternoon's IM on here as a comment, but when I went back to get it, I realized I hadn't saved it. Maybe that's the grace of God! I will say, this blog has got me thinking about my agenda in this relationship. We're both clear on where we stand, but I'm still allowing you to fill a void... what void? That I'm not quite clear on. I know that I feel loved, and I'm learning to show love. And though it may not be on the romantic level, it's love just the same. I know that I have a tendency to run to you to fill a void that only God truly can. For that I'm sorry. But please know that I cherish your friendship, and look forward to your thought provoking blogs.
~That one girl~
At March 03, 2006 4:43 PM,
Erin said…
food for thought, bro. thanks for always being real. love you!
At March 04, 2006 7:40 PM,
Anonymous said…
http://www.punchstock.com/image/stockdisc/8637125/comp/186427sdc.jpg
Food for thought
At March 05, 2006 7:29 AM,
Josh said…
hahahaha now that's comedy.
At March 14, 2006 1:27 PM,
Anonymous said…
Haven't visited your blog in a while... and today I came across this post. It so accurately describes where I am right now. Although, I may be more of a 60% 35% 5% pie.
The question is what will, or are, you (and I) doing about it? Identifying the problem is only the first step...
At March 15, 2006 3:09 PM,
Beth said…
Just browsing blogs this afternoon and came upon yours...found myself looking in your mirror and seeing me the same way.
Maybe God is talking to us both. I know he is trying to get me to listen and I am not. I think God is using a lot of other people and lessons in my life to teach me something.
Thanks for posting.
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