Mirror, Mirror

If I'm real with you and me right now, my heart just ain't right. I'm seeing this pie chart of my heart in my head. I love a lot of things, I believe my heart is always devoted to something; never not devoted to anything. It feels like it breaks down like this right now:
50% sin
40% me
10% Jesus
I'm around a lot of mirrors each day; mentors, friends, Bible, Spirit, my own heart. That's how I think I know my heart is broken up into such numbers. As I interact with each mirror, I look at my motives, why did I bother to wake up today? Why am I talking to this person right now? Why am I doing this thing at work today? Sometimes my answers include...to look good, to do the right thing, to be disciplined, to feel good, to be successful, to be liked, to be loved, to feel significant. What's that all about? I clearly know that with this heart, my motives may never be pure, but my life is like a mirror in itself, if I look at my life, I am for the most part reflecting...me.
Where's Jesus? Am I really a sign pointing to something greater? I get out of bed, I interact with my friends, strangers at a coffeeshop booth, and Jesus for furthering His kingdom. Really. No religious babble here. I'm truly convicted. Again.

Morning Voice

After talking to a friend in Cali this morning about life, love, etc...God made this clear:

"You will always be your own prisoner if you continue to live for yourself and live for others. Keep living like this and you'll get the same condemnation and guilt you know so well. You know the freedom you only seem to feel when you are finally fed up with people and your own self-will. Want more of that? Live for me in ways you've never known. You'll feel that love from the gut for me you want so much. Keep dreaming, but now, DO."

Dang. I wannna set myself free from me.

I don't usually do these...

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship. You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you Your flirting style: friendly and sweet What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

hope

I live to give you glory. I have nothing better to do.

connect

I want to connect with Jesus so bad. Why self, do you make it so difficult?